Life is great. It really is great. So I feel stupid for even writing this but I just feel like, like, something is missing. Do you ever feel like this?
Ever since Angel # 2 turned 5 years old, I feel like I don’t have babies anymore. And, no I don’t want to have more kids. The shop is closed. I just can’t believe they are growing up so fast. My nurturing instincts are still in high gear.
The Angels’ need less and less from me everyday. I mean yes they still need guidance and love but they are becoming little people who think and do for themselves – as they should.
I, on the other hand, still want to baby them. I can’t let go. My mom was so right. She said that by the time I hit my mid-COUGH-thirties (29 again), I would feel like I wanted another baby. I didn’t believe her. But again – moms know what they are talking about.
My family is at the perfect stage right now. The Angels’ are fun balls of energy. They tell jokes and can really start rationalizing things. What’s my problem !?!
This also started when friends’ of ours bought a dog. I love their dog. I’m so jealous they got a dog. Happy for them of course, but jealous that I can’t have one. My girlfriend was feeling the same way, we both have kids the same age. She too was longing for something. So she’s satisfied that urge with an adorable hypo-allergenic doggie.
I was trying to convince The Husband to do research with me on breeds that would work for us. He politely reminded me that he’s allergic. Dogs cost a lot of money (to buy, to feed, to take to the vets, etc…). He also snapped me out of my crazies when he said dogs are like a 15 year committment. The Husband is wise.
So, I can’t get a dog and I don’t want another baby. I plan on enjoying my friends’ dog and well – SOMEONE IN MY FAMILY NEEDS TO HAVE A BABY – like – stat. Hop to it already, people