Wednesday, November 23, 2011

And So It Begins…

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On December 30th, 2010 my aunt Mich passed away. I can’t believe a year has almost gone by.

Every detail of her death is still so vivid in my mind. The 10 days my family spent praying, hoping and making hospital visits over the holidays to be by her side, are still so very fresh.

Christmas last year SUCKED!

I don’t know how else to say it. My entire family was on edge. We were arguing and scared. We tried our best to make Christmas count for the Angels – but – I’m not so sure it was great. Between the whispers in the hallway, to the wiping tears from our eyes, I’m sure the Angels were well aware that Christmas 2010 is one to forget.

I’ve been really sad lately. Whenever I get in the car to drive somewhere alone, this is my CRY time. I’m not sure if it’s a song on the radio that sparks the emotion, or just the time of year. (I’m sure other drivers think I’m nuts.)

I really miss her! We all really miss her!

No one in my family is looking forward to Christmas this year. I hate that! I LOVE Christmas. I always have. I’m like a big kid. I get up before the Angels, I’m so excited. I too LOVE presents. Really – I love presents! I like giving, but I really like receiving :)

I know my family is still mourning the loss of Mich.

My real Christmas wish is for my family to find some PEACE. To start being able to let the horrible memories go and start remembering all the happy times.

So Santa – you and I have to have a chat. Do you think you can make this happen? I know I don’t want to keep crying this holiday season. I’d like the tears to go away!

Simply Yours,


{ 4 comments… read them below or add one }

Pat November 24, 2011 at 8:20 am

Dear lovely one,
May your wish come true.


Claudette November 24, 2011 at 10:28 pm

I use the same time in the car to let it go. The trick is to wear sunglasses.

As for Christmas you’re right, everyone is struggling with it. However, my wise Madi spoke up the other day when she went to put Christmas music on the radio and I shut it off. As they know, I used to torture everyone with holiday music the minute the format changed on the radio. Anyway, she said: ” Mom, you know she would be really mad at you for being this way. She loved Christmas and so did you and she would want you to keep that going STRONG. So I am truly trying……xoxo


vanessa November 24, 2011 at 11:45 pm

Sunglasses – Genius! You make me cry!


Claudette November 26, 2011 at 12:40 am

Love you !!! xoxoxo


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